Tuesday, October 26, 2004


What a productive day! Not.

I woke up at 3.00 am because I had this terrible ache in my stomach. Immediately I thought that it was my appendix and it's going to burst or something like that (watching ER can be useful but it can also make you paranoid). I took some painkillers and tried to get some sleep. I hoped that the pain would be gone when I woke up, because I didn't want so skip school again (eh.. it has been happening quite a lot lately). Eventually I fell a sleep, and woke up in the morning with no pain. I was happy, but then I started to think about school and get all paranoid and depressed about it and decide not to go. Which works out fine, because my parents are out of town today so I can feel sorry for my self in peace.

I really should do something about this school skipping thing. It's not that I'm lazy or anything like that, I just have some issues with some people in there. Maybe I should go and see a doctor who could describe me some anti-depressants or something so I wouldn't be so gloomy in the mornings (or the days, evenings and nights for that matter).

I have wasted half of the day by sleeping, even though I was supposed to read physics (I have a test coming up and things aren't looking good). So in order to make this day at least a little bit worth while, I will go get some coffee and some breakfast (at 1.20 pm... ) and start studying. Right now. If only I could stop my fingers from typing.

By the way, the symptoms that I had last night fits the description of an infected appendix. But like I said, I have no pains now, so I won't worry about it.

Post-birthday ramblings

It's nice when people who are close to you remember your special days, such as birthdays. But if people who you think are close to you forget those special days, it just makes you mad.

I happen to speak from experience.

I've always considered that me and my sister and other brother (age gap between me and my eldest brother is 15 years, so we are not that close, so if he forgets, I don't really mind) are pretty close. So this made me automatically assume that they would somehow react to my 18th birthday. I would have been satisfied with a simple email or text-message saying "happy birthday" or "congratulations" or whatever. But what do I get? Nothing! I mean, I know I didn't throw a party or anything like that, but that doesn't mean they can just forget it. It's stupid if I have to remind them about my fucking birthday in advance.

Well, I sent my brother an email last night and asked him if he knew what day it was, and he just replied something like "sorry, I've been busy all day reading physics". Sorry, but being a nerd isn't an excuse. Then I sent a text-message to my sister and asked the same thing and it took her a while to get it. Whatever, bitches. Their Christmas presents will suck so bad. That is, if I decide to buy them any.

Luckily, I can always count on my dear friends (who I don't consider as close as my sister and brother, by the way, but I guess that's going to change now) to remember my birthday. Today when I went to school I got nice presents and hugs, so I'm ok now. Except one present was a bit rude, but like I said, I will have my revenge when Christmas comes.

Oh, and I heard that it's going to snow next weekend, which is nice, I guess, since I've been waiting for it.

Sunday, October 24, 2004

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow... PLEASE!

My first post! If you don't count the test post that I deleted, that is... I thought I'd explain here why I created this blog, but then I changed my mind. It's boring, and I want to start writing about important stuff.

Usually I hate winters. Around here they are cold, long, dark and boring. Cars don't work properly because their engines or whatever are practically frozen and so on. But now, I have started to look forward to winter. It's weird and I'm not quite sure why that is. Every day I wake up I hope that there would be snow on the ground or at least that it would be so cold that it might snow later the day. And I've started to hum Christmas songs as well! I mean, it's October! Okay, the end of October, but still. The Christmas fever should hit you in the end of November the earliest, I think. But for some reason, listening to Christmas songs (in October!?!) makes me at least somewhat happy, so I'm not going to stop myself.

Also, it's my 18th birthday today. And now, my blog will also be born at this very same day. Happy birthday to us.