Sunday, January 02, 2005

Random stuff, new year resolutions etc.

I have very high hopes for 2005. This is the year when I'll (hopefully) graduate from upper secondary school, spread my wings and fly away from home. I want to go to this one university so bad, and I'm constantly worried that I wont get in. The applying process starts in March. I'm not 100% sure will I like the things I'm thinking of studying there, but apparently those who go there will end up getting good jobs and a lot of money, so...

I celebrated the new year at a bar with bunch of my friends. I wasn't sure whether I was going to go there or not, because I'm paranoid and I think that all my friends hate me and so on, but once I got some liquor in to my body things started look alright. I had lots of fun, and even met some interesting people while waiting for a cab. I was complaining to this woman that maybe I should try hitchhiking, because there wasn't any taxis around, but she advised me not to. She started to explain how something bad had happened to her when she was sixteen or fifteen, apparently some guy tried to rape her or something. I didn't really hear what she was saying, because we were both drunk and she slurred. She told me that she still remembers it like it was yesterday, even though she's turning fifty this summer. She was lovely.

Yeah, well I wasn't so happy on Saturday. I don't get really bad hangovers, I just get a bit stiff on the next day, but that's wasn't the reason. I got really depressed about everything, but mostly because school starts again tomorrow. I try to tell myself that it's only five weeks and that I can cope with it. I think I'm suffering from social anxiety or something like that, and I seriously have to get some help with this, because I can't keep skipping school like I did before Christmas or I'll fail a lot of courses. I decided that I'll call and get an appointment for a doctor who perhaps can prescribe me something or send me to a shrink who can prescribe me something. Blaah.. I just want to move out of this town as soon as possible.

Oh yes, a funny thing happened last night. I was crying and sniffing in my bed, feeling sorry for myself and all that, and suddenly my cellphone vibrates. I got up and thought that maybe I got a message from my sister who's in Egypt at the moment, but I didn't recognize the number. I send the number to this inquiry thingy where you find out who has the number, but apparently the number was secret, so I didn't get to know who that other person actually was (he told me his name and where he lived and so on but strangers can't really be trusted). Anyway, the message said something like "How are you doing?", and I thought that it was just so absurd because I was feeling like shit and suddenly I get this message from some unknown person. I send him a message back saying that I didn't know who he/she was and he replied that he might have the wrong number, but anyway we ended up sending messages to each other back and forth. At some point his reply took a while, and I thought that that was it, I put the phone on the table and went back to sleep. When I woke up, I noticed that he actually had replied when I was sleeping.

My brother leaves today, which is good, I'll probably give him a lift to the station. I love him, but most of the time I can't stand him.


And now it's time for my New Year resolutions:

-Go to a doctor and get my head fixed
-Study as hard as I can for the last remaining weeks
-exercise more
-Eat less candy, chips and such
-Try to think positive
-Not skip school (much)
-Read interesting books
-Watch less crappy TV

Even though I'll probably wake up tomorrow thinking "What's the point?" and decide to stay home, spend my day eating chips in front of the TV getting depressed while all my school books are gathering dust somewhere, it's good to at least pretend that I tried to improve my life.

Happy New year to everyone who for some strange reason find themselves reading this, feel free to make some sort of a comment. Despite the somewhat gloomy start of my new year, I'm positive that when I get my shit together, this will be one of the best years of my life so far.

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